Got one bit of disappointing news this week, I had submitted an essay I had written, a memoir about my life and transitioning, to an anthology being composed by S Bear Bergman and Kate Bornstein. I got the rejection email on Thursday, the day before Christmas! nice Christmas present! Oh well, there are other publishers around, I am not going to give up! Maybe I will post it here in LJ!
Oh well, let me try and get some sleep!!!
I started at Capital Community College in September of 2008, and it has the best thing to happen to me! I am going for a degree in social work. Will get an associates degree from Capital Community and then transfer to CCSU to get my Bachelors degree. Fall 2008 semester ended with 3 A's and a B+. Spring 2009 and fall 2009 both ended with 4 A's each semester. So my overall GPA is 3.94 to date. I recently was inducted into Phi Theta Kappa, an international honors society. Next semester will be very busy, as I will be brave, or may be foolish, and take 5 courses. That's right I said FIVE courses.. Creative writing, public speaking, intermediate algebra, state and local government, and abnormal psychology. Should be fun, and I have found that the busier I am the less trouble I get into.
As for my volunteer work, I am still keeping busy with that also. I joined the City of Hartford Commission on LGBT issues and was named Vice Chairperson. It keeps me busy and the commission is doing some really good work! We are concentrating on youth, esp in regards to anti bullying regulations in the schools, and issues dealing with transgendered issues.
I have also reconnected with my family. We are still not as close as I would like, but one day at a time.
Anyways, I will be writing more often and will see you all tomorrow!!!
- Daughters of the moon tarot cards with a brand new deck of the cards
- Psychic Healing
- Wild witches don't get the blues
When I woke up this morning, I went out and did shopping for my event Saturday. Got 4 kinds of cheeses, pepperoni, olives, cocktail wienies, crackers and nacho chips. On Saturday I am getting 50 wings from Hooters, the best wings anywhere!!! I have 4 outfits to wear at the event including one fetish PVC dress that Laurel is lending me. I have two numbers all picked out and am really getting psyched for the whole thing!!! Ok, I will be honest, I am scared as hell and like I said yesterday FRUSTRATED> But hopefully things will go smoothly, and we will raise tons of monies!!!! I know it is going to be a fun night, and my first that I will be putting on at the Chez Est.
Anyways, I need to shower, for the 5th time today and will be back later!
- Mood:
rejuvenated
The rest of the day went pretty smooth, as things are beginning to fall into place for my benefit on Saturday night. It is going to be my 3rd annual Evening of Leather and Lace. Yes, it is my 3rd time doing this, but the closer it gets, the more nervous I am getting. And rather disappointed & frustrated about it. The first two years went rather well and I raised some good monies, however this year the event has been changed drastically. For the first two years, the event was called "Women of the Night....An Evening of Leather and Lace." I always did the event on my own and did a great job. This year, one of the other court members asked to please be allowed to be a part of it. I foolishly said yes, but let her know the name of the event up front and the type of event it was, an BDSM event. She said no problem and still wanted to be a part of it, so I let her. The flyer was done and it looked great, or so I thought. Well this, sarcasm, nice young lady went behind my back to the current Emperor and complained that the name of the event was stanky. That it made us look sleazy and like we were promoting prostitution. Which is far from the truth! It is an S&M/BDSM event! not a prostitution event, but she would not bend, so the event name was changed and the event turned completely VANILLA!!!! BORING, BORING, BORING!!!!!!!!!!
Next year, I will do the event again, but this time I will do it on my own and go back to the original theme and name. Hopefully it will still do as good this year as it did the first two years. Keep your fingers crossed for me, please!
I went to Goodwill Industries and bought a used textbook for one of the courses I am taking this coming fall, and started reading it. Hildegaard's introduction to psychology. Am I stupid in thinking I can pass this course, I am beginning to think that I am! I could not get through the first introductory chapter. It was all Greek to me! I could not understand anything in the chapter at all, and it was JUST AN INTRODUCTION TO THE COURSE!!!! I am beginning to have 2nd thoughts about going back to school. Yes last year at Trinity, I did great and got a 4.0 GPA, but maybe that was a fluke! Maybe I am really not as smart as I thought. Maybe I am like my dad told me, a good for nothing, who will never amount to anything! I am such a stupid idiot to think I could be a therapist. I have to lie down, I am starting to get a migraine.
Talk to you later!!!! Maybe, as I am getting too depressed to write right now!
- Mood:
frustrated
I finally got a job at Showcase Cinemas, one of my favorite jobs. That lasted until I went on disability in 1997. I finally had money and could afford to move into a motel again. Plus I worked part time as a driver and doing laundry at a local massage parlor. That job was a trip, but I made a fortune. If only I had put some of that money aside. But unfortunately I got involved with the wrong people and started doing drugs and blowing all the money I made on them. How stupid I was!!!!! I literally got scared straight, when the club was raided in October of 2003 and I was again out of a job. I am also so lucky that I took that fateful day off, or I would have ended up in jail. Not a good place for someone like me. I don't miss the job, but I do miss some of the girls, especially my Jeannie, Tricia, Asia, Nina, Angela, Jackie, becky and Gail.
I immediately checked myself back into the IOL for rehab and after a hard battle, I have been clean and sober ever since.
In November 2003, I went back to work at the community center and became the Office Manager. I later joined the board of Directors and remained until they closed in 2007. While I was there, I joined the Twenty club and began my transition from Alfred to Natasha Rose. I started on Hormones in February 2004 and went through the Gender Identity Clinic and got my official diagnosis as Gender Identity Disorder. I Changed my name on all my documents and officially became Natasha Rose Lombardi.
I also became involved with two other groups, which are a big part of my life to this day. The Imperial Sovereign Court of all CT, Inc. and The Society. You will learn more about these groups as my journal progresses.
I also, in 2006, was elected by the Mayor and The City Council of Hartford to be a Commissioner on the City of Hartford Commission of Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender Issues. And in November of 2007, I was unanimously elected Vice Chair of the Commission. The commission does so much good work and I am so proud to be a part of it.
In September 2007, I also went back to school on a scholarship to Trinity College. I did not expect to do as good as I did, But Graduated in April 2008, with a 4.0 grade point average. I was so happy and even more pleased when my sister Marilyn and her husband showed up at my graduation. For the first time ever, my sister told me she was proud of me!!! I went home and cried tears of happiness!!
In September, I am going to Capitol Community College and work on my associates degree in social services (Mental Health Option), and then go from there to get my BSW. I want to be a mental health therapist and work with GLBTI youth. There are so many with mental health and drug and alcohol issues, that slip through the crack. I want to be there for them, and give them the help I never got growing up. Anyways, enough of my life, starting tomorrow I will do a daily journal of what is going on in my life!
Have a Sparkling day!
- Mood: bitchy
I Began life as Alfred John, named after my father, on April 24, 1950. I lived in a typical dysfunctional family and had a rather uneventful childhood. Except I knew from a very early age that I was different. I never felt comfortable doing boy things and that drove my father crazy! At the age of 7 I was impersonating and lip syching to Shirley Temple records. I had her down to a perfect imitation. When I entered high school, I entered the drama club and got to express my self on the stage. It felt so good being on stage, I loved every part no matter how big or small. Around this time, my mother let me go to New York twice a month to see a broadway show. I was so happy and got to see so many classic performers, Mary Martin, Joel Grey, Ethel Merman, Julie Andrews, and Angela Lansbury among others!
After high school I entered nursing school, I wanted to help people when they were sick and needed it the most.
This totally displeased my father, who truly believed the "only males who become nurses are Fa***ts". I purposely flunked out my Sophomore year to make him happy. But that made me even more unhappy and depressed My friend Eddie, in order to cheer me up, took me to a new bar that had just opened.....The Warehouse Cafe. That got me started on a new career! I started out as a busboy and ended up Part time DJ. I was in heaven playing music and seeing people dance to my new found talent! I then became full time DJ, when the main one was let go. He was a close friend and I felt bad for him, but happy to be working full time. When the bar changed locations, I was promoted to assistant manager, I was responsible for the entertainment aspect of the club, as well as the inventory and ordering of liquor. Unfortunately this job came to an end on April 24, 1994, when the bar closed! I sunk into a deep depression and almost ended up homeless, but instead moved back with mom. Big Mistake! That did not last long and when I got a job, I moved into a motel.
Well enough for now, I will continue tomorrow.
- Mood:
nostalgic
To my chosen family, you have all been great. A special thanks goes out to The Imperial Court for letting me be a part of such a tremendous organization. Thanks to members like Mark Campbell, John Howard, Jean Henry, our current Emperor and Empress, and especially Empress Panzi, and Empress Vi'let for treating me with such respect and friendship. I have great respect for all of you, and will be there for you if you ever need anything. To the Society and WMPE, you have all taught me so much about letting the real me show through! Special thanks to p=bobby and Joan, Paul and C.C., and my bdsm family, Rachel, Rick and Megan. A thanks also to Beth, Lady Rissa, Mistress April, Ironass and Gwen. You have also been good friends through this journey!
To my Best friend in the whole world, who has been there for me when ever I fell done and needed help getting back up, Roy Moeckel and his Partner for 38 years Bob, I could not have made it without you!! I love you both.
And last but not least, to the Twenty Club, especially Shelly, Diana (Hi cuz!), Donna Jude, Tonia and the other members, thanks for all your support and knowledge over the years. And especially to CTAC and Jeriemarie and Anja, you were the ones who helped me accept the real me and started the transition to the female I was always meant to be.
Yes there is one last group I have to thank, and that is the members of the City of Hartford Commission on Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender Issues! Regina, Rage, Joanne, Diane, Tiffany, Dion, Jay, BJ, Virginia and Diana. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to grow and the support and faith to be your Vice Chair.
This is only an introductory post, after today I will be posting every day. and tell you a little bit about my life and transition.
- Mood:
energetic
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